You Are Never Alone

Dear outcasted teenage boy or girl,

I am writing this blog post to let you know that you are not alone in how you feel. I graduated high school less than 2 years ago, and I will be honest, I suffered in high school. I do not have some intense bullying story to tell you, but I believe that being intentionally ignored or pushed to the sidelines without being given much attention can leave a deep emotional wound on you that you sometimes forget is there. It is hard to just try to pretend that this didn't happen, that you weren't forgotten. You might see yourself in a certain way and have a label subconsciously as being too different to be good enough. Sometimes things are etched in stone and hard to erase. Tough love might help, but I am being honest and showing my pain and the wrongness of being outcasted so that you feel more understood. For the moment I just want you to relate to me. So that you feel better.

Maybe you feel like a small dot in the universe. But even if you don't believe me, you aren't. You may have been alone in your bedroom one night looking out into the dark, deep night sky and pondering why you exist on Earth in the first place. No one really remembers how they got here... but do you really think that it would make sense for certain things to just happen by accident. No! There is too much order, too many cool things that would not likely have happened by chance. Think about your intuitive emotions. You naturally feel something is right or wrong. Or think about what makes your heart beat. How could the beauty of the world be a mistake? It is too magical for that to possibly be. And I will give you the real answer as to why you are here on this planet in another post. Because on my 19th birthday a year ago, I found the answer. I cracked the code to life.

I have a lot to tell you, my friend. I have a lot to say that will help you. But for now I must leave you with the words that I have already typed for you to feel, hear, and ponder. That you are not alone, that there is hope, that there is something wrong with your environment, not you. So take it easy, and realize that I am here for you. That you can take the pain. That life is a bastard sometimes but you are more than the shit it can bring onto you. I know how you feel. But please do me a favor and have an open mind. Don't think the deepness of one painful emotion means everything. There is so much more out there for you than you realize.

I love you, fellow teenage outcast.

From your big sister,
Julia <3