Soul Friend

I think it might be strange that I don't have someone to call my best friend or close friend. Someone that I feel can comfort me with anything and that I feel closely bonded to. That understands me. I feel like that's supposed to have happened or supposed to be a thing in my life. But I guess maybe things like that are very rare. What are the chances that you'll find that person that you can tell everything to and who knows what to say to help you feel better?

I feel so sad and alone sometimes, when I'm hurt and want to be comforted but there doesn't seem to be anyone who can comfort me or get the pain away totally. Someone being there is enough to make the pain 99% more tolerable.

I reach out to people who are my friends, but it feels like I'm still longing for something else. I know the friends I have now will come and go.

Here is a quote from Eggshell Therapy about intense people like me and you about always having wanted and needed something more to fill the hole in your soul:

"Just as in childhood, intense people feel alone in the world. As you are wired differently, true peers have always been hard to come by. You have a lifelong yearning for a soulmate. A romantic partner may seem like an ‘obvious’ answer to the gaping hole in your soul, but the reality might leave you disappointed. Even if you had met someone or made a friend with whom you have a reciprocal connection, you find yourself outgrowing them. The best scenario would be to have a committed partner who can grow with you, but not all of us are fortunate enough to have found such a person."


I love this because it makes me feel less alone. It makes me feel understood.